It's been a while since I posted....It has been so busy with the end of summer and school starting back. I have also just needed some time to just Be Still!
Well, today's my birthday! This past year has really been a time of reflection. I have struggled with depression over the past year, and have really needed to do some soul searching. We must go through those dark times, as in it the Lord refines us. I am grateful for this past year. I cut back on service, and really strove to put my attention on listening to the Lord's leading. While I still have much to learn, I have come to many conclusions. The biggest is...."TO DO WITHOUT"....
Right after I turned 40 I read the book by Bob Buford, Halftime. That was an awaking. There is so much in the book. I thought about it for a while, and put it back on the shelf. I reread it not too long ago. It's a humbling thought to think that in your 40's you are more than likely halfway through your life here on this earth. In my first half I strove to success. Success in education, career, marriage, raising a family. What's next? How do you go from success to significance? What have I missed? Where do I go from here? What does the Lord what me to do with the rest of the time I have here on earth?
Psalm 32:8 "I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will counsel you with my loving eye on you."
While this path is still being paved, I go in faith and obedience: SURRENDER.
Galations 5:24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with it's passions and desires.
Colossians 1:27 To them God has chosen to make known the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.
I must create room for the Lord. He wants me to have a...2 Timothy 1:7 a spirit of power, of love and self discipline. My obedience and sacrifice show my heart and my devotion to Him. Laying down my desires is an expression of love which demonstrates through tangible action that God is my chief delight.
Ephesians 2:7 You see, Jesus is seated on the throne in heaven. God raised us up with Christ, in the coming ages so that he might show the surpassing riches that he has shown us through grace.
If I am to move forward I must...Do Without. There are rewards for giving up things for spiritual gain. A fuller experience of Christ is possible when I commit myself to the discipline of giving up "good things" and sticking to the plan.
So....In light of all I can gain: What do I have to lose?
- ▼ 2012 (36)